GW–> Oh, speaking of awesome images, that whole episode just flashed through my mind! Yes, indeed. Just hold onto your Legos GW…the time for stacking, playing and sorting will come. Actually, it never ends and once you fall into the joy of that, it’s a very cool thing.

Joni–>You’re going to teach Sunday School again??!! Oh Joni, that’s so great! I can only imagine what a mix of feelings it’s going to be for you but in the end my friend I believe it will be major healing and joy for you! Okay. Now I’m excited!

Stephanie–>I live to creep people out! And yep, it’s all about clearing the way for grace grace grace and more grace.

John–>Oh shucks. The way you flatter… Now, let’s talk about that mug shot because that’s a whole lot of straight guy for these parts! [smirk]

Your every word is so very true. Again, although that entire process may be a bit uncomfortable because it leaves an uneasy feeling within us, for each brick that is smashed, a new freedom arrives. Grace shines even brighter.

That being said, November 16, 2008 will be the first time that I teach Sunday School again to a group of K – grade 5 children. The last time being May 2005. Everything within me trembles at the thought and I’m struggling with the wall that has been so tightly around me in that area.

While I want to see this wall continue to fall, crumble and dissappear… I’m still coughing on the smoke of the larger wall that is on the other side of it. I find just when I feel as though I’m breathing clear and can take a deep breath, that is when I end up coughing. I dream of a day when I can look out and see a wide open place of no boundaries and walls and look beyond all that presently hinders my view. I know this day is coming. And the walls around me are smaller and thinner… God is doing something and has been. At times it feels as though the rubble lies around my feet while at others that I cannot see or breathe for the pressing in of them.

Thank you for the illustration of the lego wall. I would love to exchange these bricks for lego!!!

I so appreciate the lego imagery. It is difficult to get away from the mentality that the bricks need to be lined up and stacked perfectly, held firmly together cement. (I have an image of an “I Love Lucy” episode when she thought she lost her wedding ring in the bbq they just built. By the time she tore that down and rebuilt it, it was a mess, but a bbq none the less. It certainly wasn’t pretty. That is a bit what my wall looks like these days.)

I have much to learn as I sort through all of this. I am thankful for a wonderful therapist who is helping my partner and I negotiate this phase of our journey together. Right now the legos are just spread out all over the floor, but someday I know we will begin to stack them in some fashion.

Thanks Anita for your response to my last comments. I feel encouraged by your words and your expressions of hope.

This is a beautiful piece, and great imagery of busting down walls…walls which, of course, are ones that we build in our convinctions that we know what’s right. As an aside, I have often likened my relationship with God and coming into a deeper knowledge of God in my life as being like playing with a Rubik’s Cube. I can get the colors on one side all lined up, only to discover that now another side isn’t quite right and I have to keep twisting, turning, studying, looking….but I keep at it. Because, when all is said and done, I like playing with a Rubik’s Cube!